Breakdown and Oso
The Return: A monologue
Mike: Life is true. At least that is the only thing I know to be true. I sure know that religion isn't true. Because if it were true then the people who follow a religion wouldn't be fucking idiots. And since they appear to be idiots, then that must mean it isn't true. Really these people aren't idiots they are just cliches and hypocrites. They believe god is watching only when they are in church or when they are doing good. Never mind when they are driving like maniacs on Oso or being cruel to the kid who is different or they are blowing the pool guy; god isn't watching then. Then they are just having fun. And with this belief structure they have no trouble sleeping at night. Because no one is holding them responsible. Yet atheists have lots of trouble because they know that its only them and that they alone are responsible for their actions. There is no little invisible man to come out and make it all right. Now the atheist would love to be the believer because lets be honest its a cold world when you realize that no one cares and you are alone. I used to think that friendship was true. But not anymore, since I left the school I have seen how supposed true friends act. They act in a way that is neither true not friendly. Then there is love. The biggest phony thing in life.
I have a friend and this friend has a boyfriend who has been going out with said friend for over a year. They have cheated on each other an acknowledged 6 times. That means they must have a couple more they haven't admitted to because I believe that people lie. And unfortunately I am almost never wrong in this belief. This doesn't not sound like a healthy relationship. What's worse is that they refuse to break up and even make the claim that they love each other. If you love someone how the fuck can you cheat on them? It seems to go against the very basic meaning of love. Then whey claim they will get married and I will attend because I care bout them. First I don't care. Second, What the fuck would they do that for? Marriage does not seem to be the right course of action. All that will happen is one of them can come home early and find the other one rollign out of bed with their secretary. As the screaming brats they have for children run by in the hall demanding more money to appease there hatred toward the parents. That sounds healthy. I guess it goes to show that even whores can have relationships. And that the idea of love is just bullshit at this point.
Then I have another set of friends. I am amazed that I have two sets aswell. They are going out. Which ot me is a bad idea since college is coming up and we need to break down relationships, not build them up. Well one of them loves the other one with his whole heart and is infatuated. The other is just tired of rejecting him. That's right she is going out with him because she is tired of rejecting his desperate pleas and seeing him sob into his steering wheel as he drives away. And they claim to love each other. That's what I want for love, love because it is convenient and you can no longer stand to put up a fight. That is the kind of love songs are written about.
And there is me. I have never been in love. And as far as I can tell I don't want to be in love. Being in love from what I have experienced seems to make you do dumb things and annoy the rest of the world with your bull shit. One of the couples apologize for blowing me off by saying they lose track of time when they are together. My only response was buy a fuckin watch. I also have never been in a relationship that has lasted for more than a couple weeks. That is simply because I don't like people and I generally alienate people quickly. I notice the hypocrisies that they commit and call them on it. Not a good move when you are with a girl. Girls seem to operate wholly on the principle of bullshit and hypocrisy. They love to go against what they just told you. Relationships who need them. I get the occasionally hook up and that is all I really want. I don't want a relationship. A relationship brings emotion. And emotions bring breakdowns. And all breakdowns have ever given me was pain. And I am tired of pain in that sense.
Mike: Life is true. At least that is the only thing I know to be true. I sure know that religion isn't true. Because if it were true then the people who follow a religion wouldn't be fucking idiots. And since they appear to be idiots, then that must mean it isn't true. Really these people aren't idiots they are just cliches and hypocrites. They believe god is watching only when they are in church or when they are doing good. Never mind when they are driving like maniacs on Oso or being cruel to the kid who is different or they are blowing the pool guy; god isn't watching then. Then they are just having fun. And with this belief structure they have no trouble sleeping at night. Because no one is holding them responsible. Yet atheists have lots of trouble because they know that its only them and that they alone are responsible for their actions. There is no little invisible man to come out and make it all right. Now the atheist would love to be the believer because lets be honest its a cold world when you realize that no one cares and you are alone. I used to think that friendship was true. But not anymore, since I left the school I have seen how supposed true friends act. They act in a way that is neither true not friendly. Then there is love. The biggest phony thing in life.
I have a friend and this friend has a boyfriend who has been going out with said friend for over a year. They have cheated on each other an acknowledged 6 times. That means they must have a couple more they haven't admitted to because I believe that people lie. And unfortunately I am almost never wrong in this belief. This doesn't not sound like a healthy relationship. What's worse is that they refuse to break up and even make the claim that they love each other. If you love someone how the fuck can you cheat on them? It seems to go against the very basic meaning of love. Then whey claim they will get married and I will attend because I care bout them. First I don't care. Second, What the fuck would they do that for? Marriage does not seem to be the right course of action. All that will happen is one of them can come home early and find the other one rollign out of bed with their secretary. As the screaming brats they have for children run by in the hall demanding more money to appease there hatred toward the parents. That sounds healthy. I guess it goes to show that even whores can have relationships. And that the idea of love is just bullshit at this point.
Then I have another set of friends. I am amazed that I have two sets aswell. They are going out. Which ot me is a bad idea since college is coming up and we need to break down relationships, not build them up. Well one of them loves the other one with his whole heart and is infatuated. The other is just tired of rejecting him. That's right she is going out with him because she is tired of rejecting his desperate pleas and seeing him sob into his steering wheel as he drives away. And they claim to love each other. That's what I want for love, love because it is convenient and you can no longer stand to put up a fight. That is the kind of love songs are written about.
And there is me. I have never been in love. And as far as I can tell I don't want to be in love. Being in love from what I have experienced seems to make you do dumb things and annoy the rest of the world with your bull shit. One of the couples apologize for blowing me off by saying they lose track of time when they are together. My only response was buy a fuckin watch. I also have never been in a relationship that has lasted for more than a couple weeks. That is simply because I don't like people and I generally alienate people quickly. I notice the hypocrisies that they commit and call them on it. Not a good move when you are with a girl. Girls seem to operate wholly on the principle of bullshit and hypocrisy. They love to go against what they just told you. Relationships who need them. I get the occasionally hook up and that is all I really want. I don't want a relationship. A relationship brings emotion. And emotions bring breakdowns. And all breakdowns have ever given me was pain. And I am tired of pain in that sense.
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